My routine for purpose

See I’ve always struggled with the idea of ‘purpose’

it seemed like an idea I needed to chase, or find for myself, because everybody around me already seemed to have it.

It’s like they were born and already know right off the bat what their unique purpose was.

well that was never me, and if you’re not too familiar with who i am

i’m one of the most ADHD motherfuckers out there.

i’ve never had an easy time sticking to things..

plans, skills, diet choices, routines, and this might be TMI.. but even damn relationships.

my shiny object syndrome has always had control over me

i’ve never understood what i was meant to do, because i’ve always been interested in way too much.

well that was until i made a simple mental switch that helped me realize my ‘purpose’

and it was simply, forgetting about the grand-scheme idea of it.

when i was too fixated on this idea of my life goal and my future purpose, it always paralyzed my present goals, and what i’m supposed to be doing now

it’s almost like i was waiting for a magic wind of wisdom to give the answer to me..

but now, I believe I wake up with purpose, and it’s not because I want to save the world or some futuristic elon musk bs

it’s because of the actions i take daily, and what I do during the day.

yeah.. that’s right

my purpose is now derived from my routine and what i do in the present moment, because that is the only thing we really have.

here’s the routine i’ve been sticking to:

Morning writing:

Straight up, just waking up in the morning, and getting some writing in, this could be a journal entry, or a letter like this, any form of writing.

now this has helped me in way too many ways to write in this letter, but the biggest one is just documenting myself, and understanding myself.

the more I write, the more logs I have of myself, to see what’s worked, what hasn’t worked, what I like, what I don’t.

I’m understanding my own behaviours and patterns that I can self correct.

and if i can help or inspire other people through this process, that’s a fucking bonus.

it’s also a passion that’s been developing for me, i love the process of it, and i don’t see myself stopping anytime soon.

Morning Meditation:

20 minutes in silence, focusing single handedly on my breath or a mantra.

this has helped the most with my naturally overactive mind, thinking about 90 different things at once

focusing too much on future ideas and plans.

this keeps me grounded and in the present

it’s what i need most to start my days.

Afternoon Physical Exercise:

for my exercise, i prefer weightlifting.

i like working on the aesthetics of my body, as it really just makes me feel better about myself.

but on the days i don’t want to lift, i’ll go for a run.

and on the days my knees are fucked up, i’ll do some yoga.

lifting, running, and yoga are my holy trinity for exercise, and i absolutely love it

Coding/Technicals:

When it comes to tech, right now I’m more focused on job interviews than my actual technicals, I’ve went through a phase of strictly focusing on the building aspect.

but my goal was always to comfortably land a job, and put that money into things I actually want to be working on.

always going to be interested in software, and I’m going to keep pursing it

but I’m not that aligned with it in terms of content and messages I want to be putting out in the universe.

Creativity Time:

the rest of my free-time goes either to work, or creativity time.

and my creativity time is either drawing, or going on some long walks.

now why does this routine work for me? why haven’t i burned out yet?

it’s simply alignment.

the things that stick are naturally the things that I want to be doing

things that almost seem frictionless, even though they might require effort.

they align with my goals, and my vision of myself for the future.

maybe that 20 minute morning meditation session is taking away from me making money, or me doing something else that could be ‘more’ productive.

but what it gives me is mental fortitude, peace, and clarity.

those are things that i personally value more than anything else I could be doing right now.

your goals could be completely different from mine, and that is fine.

the key is to find what you’re personally more aligned with, and stick to it.

with everything being said i hope you took something out of this

stay blessed <3